Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I decided to write this blog because i want to tell the whole world that i just lost a person who had changed my life...
This person is none other than my grandmom..
I am quite close to her...
I remember that when i was young, haven't go school yet, i went to her coffeeshop...
First time, i feel bored there...but slowly, i became to like it..
Seeing my grandmom made coffee,tea..etc..to the customers.. My grandma is good in making coffee and tea...THe smell of it makes u wan to drink it...not one cup, but more than one cup...Then, i forgot why it closed down, maybe because of the tax...
My grandmom had a friend in a old folk's home. SHe visits her when she is free..Although she is very old...she still work in people's coffeeshop...to earn money..i sometimes went there with her..one funny thing is...she walks very fast...maybe because of her life...she suffers alot when she was young..she did alot of work..
My grandma likes to play majong...lol...i still remember one night, she did not go home..and my uncle is worried...and almost call the police but must be 24 hour missing then can report...so we waited...finally she came home around 2am...guess where she go? she went to play majong...lol..and she was scolded by her daugthers and sons..lol...she is like a small kid..
My grandpa pass away last year.. for his last minutes of life, he was holding my grandma's hand..ANd when he is in coffin, my grandma stands beside the coffin and stare at him...talk to him....i know she is very sad...but she can only see for awhile...because she need to rest as she had cancer...although she is in pain, she still dtands up and go see grandpa in the coffin...
During the 5 day funeral of my grandpa, the families sit together and talk...I that the past of my grandma and grandpa is very touching.
My grandma married to a man and she gave birth to 2 daughters...one of the daughter is my mom...Then the man ran away...My grandma, looking after the two young kids...At that time, working is very hard and taking after two children are also very hard...A woman and two kids...then, my grandma began to know a guy..and the guy is none other than my grandpa...My grandpa is a rich man..then married my grandmom...my grandpa treat the two kids as his own daughters..and few years later, my grandma gave birth to two sons and a daughter.....then grandpa became bankrupt...my grandmom work hard to earn money to bring up her kids....then live a normal life...the kids grow up and work to earn money..grandpa and grandmom still love each other no matter what till the end.....this is their love story...
Although the doctor say there is no cure for her cancer and it will get worse, she began to believe in Jesus, her health tend to become good...so she try to attend events that the church had organised...She is quite active...lol..
She likes to cook..so almost every sunday, we went to her place and eat..
I can her smile when we eat her food...I still remember she likes to say," Are you full?"...lol...she care all of us..
As i say, she likes to play majong...And so when we went to eat at her place, they will play majong...Then my brother likes to mock my grandma...such as," Do you have money anot?" OR " GOing to give me money?"...lol...She expressions make me laugh..like want to laugh but can't laugh because she is being mock...lol..
I never see her angry before..she always have the patience....
She is funny because she always snatch people's rice bowl..lol..We hire a maid to take care of her...but my grandma always snatch her job, like cooking....lol...
Even working, she works efficiently...she works very hard....HEr sons and daughters gave her money when they visit her but she still works...i think she is a person who don't likes to sit down quietly at home..lol..
Then her sickness began to worsen...
She began to sit on the sofa and no energy to move...she stop eating...when she eats, she vomits so we gave her milo...so we began to visit her more..She don't wan to go to the hospital as she know that there is no cure...She is strong..she know she is going off...she told the family that Jesus is bring her to the heaven...she is prepared....she told her family that what clothes to wear when she is in the coffin...etc...
She celebrated her last birthday on the bed...we sang birthday song, she try to clap her hands...although she has no energy because of no eating anything, she still claps...SHe cried...
Her last few weeks, she is in pain.. when eats medicine, she will sleep more and become blur...like when u wake up, u don't know what happen...but she she did not eat the medicine she will feel pain...
THen the last day, at night, almost 11pm, we had call...we immediately rushed to her house..But she is gone..I wanted cry but i can't...I was thinking she is gone, her pain of cancer is gone...i want cry, i try not to..i don't wan to let her see me cry..I touch her hand...see her face...she is peaceful..
At the last day of her funeral, when we see her in the cofin, going to be burned..I cried...I can't control....because my heart is pain...i feel that someone is gone...I can never feel her touch, hear her nag, see her face, see her funny moves, hear her laugh, her everything...
I MISS U....
I WILL NEVER FORGET U...
THX FOR EVERYTHING......
U WILL BE MY ONE AND ONLY GRANDMOM...
I LOVE U...
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